WHY

Why does it have to be this way?

Why can't we just walk out?

How come we don't have no trust?

How come we act like we're okay?

Why are our hearts so secret?

Why can't we just forget about people?

When I came here i came alone

Why do i have to worry about them

Their opinions don't matter

If you worrying about them

You will lose your life

They do it for the sake of themselves

I sit lonely and watch the sun go down

Thinking one day they will feel sorry

I have pain that no one can get me out of but him

But him does not bother

I feel like him is scared

But what are you scared of huh

Is it HER that you're afraid of

They said we can change the world

I believe if you act you will change my world

They said "patient is a good thing"

I don't know if i believe in it any more

I love yall but you guys do not care

What kind of people are you guys

I don't see why yall don't feel someone's pain

You guys made me feel this way but yet

You guys don't realize it. How come?

I show love no respond

I sit quiet no respond

My question is what should I do

Patient is not working for me

Should I just go and do any crazy thing?

Where will that take me?

When you want something so bad

You can't always get it. but why?

I will continue being patient

For a little while but after that things will go my way

If that will help then i have to do that

I'M OUT!

I saw him

So I saw this guy and I thought he was so HOT
I tried my best to talk to him, well I did
He was sweet and everything but i had a problem
I couldn't continue talking to him because I think...
I still like this other dude... I know it's very hard
But He's the one I wanted to be with 
I didn't want to waste my time well his time too
So I had to let it go even though he is HOT 
They said "Don't look for LOVE in faces and places"
But yet I still do, life comes with a lot that you don't want
But you have to go through them because it's part of living
I understand giving and taking CHANCES is a great thing
I still can't take the chance of faking that I'm happy
When I'm not even near it 
I just hope people will understand how much you love them
To be honest i have never felt like this in my whole life
I just don't get the reason why I'm feeling like this
Sometimes I ask myself and people how does love feel?
But you don't fall in love for no reason 
They said "LOVE is when you think about one person constantly"
Well I think about this one dude all the times does that mean I'm in love?
Not sure because we had noting going but we just know each other
Never did anything to make me fall in love with him
I don't get love but I will love to fall and know the feelings
If I can do anything right now I will try to get that dude by my side
He's amazing, cute, polite, and outgoing just what I want
Well If its meant to happen then it will but if not then I guess not

He

He's the one that called me names

He's the one that hurt me

He's the one who said mean things about me

He's the one who is ashamed of me

And I sit here talking about HIM

It's all about HE! HE! HE! to my friends

Are you serious, was I sleeping this whole time?

If I was then thank God I'm awake

There is someone who loves me

He will do what ever to take care of me

I just now realized everything you have done to me

I am the nicest girl but yet you don't see it

Calling me a "thing" are you serious, how dare you?

To be honest with you i regret everything 

But i also blame everything on me 

If I didn't fall for your stupidity things would've been great

You lucky you had me but I'm ashamed you did

You don't deserve me at all not even a little

Heard you said "what would I do with that?"

Let me tell you something whether you deny it or not

I did not fall for you, I did not care about you

You came looking for me 

But my DUMB ASS thought you were real

You're nothing but an asswhole 

You're nothing but a hypocrite

You're nothing but a lameo 

You're nothing but a disrespectful lil dude

You call yourself a "player" right

Well you might of played them all 

But honey you did not play me and deep down you know that


So keep your fake words to yourself 

You don't know how bad I wish i never met you

You were too sweet but turned into a dush 

You may find someone to call you names

You may find someone to be a shame of you

You may find someone to say mean things about you

You may find someone to hurt you

Then you will know what you did to me

I gave you nothing but love 


People like you never appreciated the good 


they will say what ever to get the other


Thank God i don't have to worry about you anymore


You know why I'm moving to something better


Great life Sir.

Nieraw you're an amazing person

You're very nice but people take advantage of that
You're the sweetest thing alive but people don't understand that
You and I go way back way before this country 
I just hate how people mistreat you 
Since you're nice and it's rear for you to say "NO"
People will ways take advantage of that 
You get no help when you need it but you give help when they need it
What a cruel world we live in 
People never appreciate you but don't worry i will always do
You been here for me when I was hurt 
You the one that used to always call me and see if my heart is okay
You the one who always tells me to forget about him
I was stupid to not listen to you
But i thank you for listening to my words
It was all about him him him and now its all about me
You change everything i used to think of 
I thought i was in love until you told me "wake up"
So I did and i found out that i wasn't
Even though i still do it now it's not like how i use to 
I thank God for letting you to be here for me when i was hurt
Your kindness is amazing 
You're beautiful from the outside to inside
I must tell you for get about that one person who hurt you
You need a KING that will appreciate you not a loser that will careless for you
You deserve much more than this, a QUEEN shall find a KING 
That will take care of her, move on with your life and find someone that will care 
This wold has so many buys that are RESPECTFUL and CARE
I just wanted to say that I love you unconstitutionally my dear 
You're an amazing person to have in one's life
You're my cousin and also a friend i can count on
A friend that will never turn me down 
May you be happy soon 
May you have where you can call home
May you find who you have been looking for all your life
May your dreams come true 
I LOVE YOU SISTER

Pain you put my heart through

I sit here with my heart in pieces 

Acting as if everything is "OKAY" with me

You hurt me and I reward you

How long will we be like how we are?

I have nothing but love and you have nothing but hate

Deep down in my heart you're not who you say you are

I may tell you to change but you will ask me this question

"Who are you to tell me I needed to change?"

I could answer your question but there is no need to

Since you claim to be someone you're not

I will take the blame for everything 

For letting things go the way they went 

If i didn't agree to what you said then 

My heart was never going to be broken as it is right now

Well, I never had love for you but you made me love you

I have never thought of it this way but you made me believe

I swear i think of you every day and God knows 

I talk about you to my friends 

One of my friends once said

"Regina you're stupid" and now i know what she meant 

Why have a secret heart when you know you will not be living for long

We all have amount of time to live 

I lost my teenage years because of you

My time have been wasted by you

But hey I will not be the little girl you knew 

I am now a grown young lady who knows whats best for her

I can't be treated like crap any more

I be came smarter than I was 

Every time you look into my eyes i see this amazing person

Who has so much to give but afraid to 

Sometimes you have to take a never taken path

That's how people grow to be better people

I will not say I will love you for ever but I will until good comes my way

I hope you realize that you will be losing the best thing

I LOVE YOU!

The one I love

if it wasn't you, where will i be?
if it wasn't you, what will i have?
I am thankful to have you in my life
you gave me everything i wanted
you took care of me when i was little
you loved me unconditionally and you still love me
i know deep down that you still love me
you are the best grandmother a   young girl like me would ask for
my life was perfect when you were here with me
but now the distance have brought us apart
I am lonely everyday in my room
I have no one to talk to when you were the one I used to communicate with
everyone has turn on me right when you went back to Sudan
I think of you everyday, I know you're worried about me
but all i can tell you is don't worry about me
just take care of yourself and hopefully I will see you soon
I know you will proud of me that I am going to college
you once said "education is your mother,father, and husband"
I will do what you said and continue my education
I miss you so much sometimes i wish you can come back now
but since you can't all i can do is talk about you and think of you
I don't know why you had to leave me here
I feel like I am alone no one loves me
my own family have turn against me
I cry day and night wishing you were here to sweet talk me
when ever you talk to me I always feel better
I am here alone! alone! alone!
Remember when i used to wake up in the middle of the night
I wake you up and tell you I'm scared can sleep with you
sometimes you say NO! because you wanted me to get use to sleeping alone
I also remember this question I asked you
"what will I do without you"
you told me about education again
you said "just focus on school and you will be fine"
I know you used to cry with me when ever they treated me unfair
you know who they are i will keep the names to myself
I will always Love you until you come back to me
I hope you are having much fun with the people back home
YOU'RE THE BEST GRANDMOTHER EVER