The one I love

if it wasn't you, where will i be?
if it wasn't you, what will i have?
I am thankful to have you in my life
you gave me everything i wanted
you took care of me when i was little
you loved me unconditionally and you still love me
i know deep down that you still love me
you are the best grandmother a   young girl like me would ask for
my life was perfect when you were here with me
but now the distance have brought us apart
I am lonely everyday in my room
I have no one to talk to when you were the one I used to communicate with
everyone has turn on me right when you went back to Sudan
I think of you everyday, I know you're worried about me
but all i can tell you is don't worry about me
just take care of yourself and hopefully I will see you soon
I know you will proud of me that I am going to college
you once said "education is your mother,father, and husband"
I will do what you said and continue my education
I miss you so much sometimes i wish you can come back now
but since you can't all i can do is talk about you and think of you
I don't know why you had to leave me here
I feel like I am alone no one loves me
my own family have turn against me
I cry day and night wishing you were here to sweet talk me
when ever you talk to me I always feel better
I am here alone! alone! alone!
Remember when i used to wake up in the middle of the night
I wake you up and tell you I'm scared can sleep with you
sometimes you say NO! because you wanted me to get use to sleeping alone
I also remember this question I asked you
"what will I do without you"
you told me about education again
you said "just focus on school and you will be fine"
I know you used to cry with me when ever they treated me unfair
you know who they are i will keep the names to myself
I will always Love you until you come back to me
I hope you are having much fun with the people back home
YOU'RE THE BEST GRANDMOTHER EVER